I miss going portaging and camping.

Why?

I miss packing my stuff into the dry bag, pitching a tent somewhere new every night, packing up a canoe depending on the waves, the mental focus required when you're tired, sitting around a campfire, and the starry skies. The one thing I miss the most is getting to your campsite for the evening, exploring the area you're staying in, and the silence. Pure, true silence. You take a deep breath in and as you exhale, it feels as though all your worries go away. Your eyes close and you start breathing in your surroundings. I can sit there for hours, think, and listen to the silence. No electricity, no technology, no motor vehicles. For those moments, its just you and nature. You look out out to the lake, you can see the moon and stars reflection on the water. Natural light. You look at the leaves and branches rustling with the wind. Pure and real. It's an escape from reality. It's relaxation at its finest.

As connected as I am to my technology, I would much rather live without it. Technology causes so many problems, issues, frustrations, and unneeded stress.

I haven't been portaging in over seven years.

Why? I've made sacrifices, compromises.

Why? They did not enjoy it.

Why? I'm not sure anymore.

I think I need to start making a bucket list.